So we're back at that "hitting the wall" stage again, where I'm realizing the zero-progress effect I'm living under is continuing to shred the foundations of what makes me, me. When I'm balanced and have access to a few of the little things that enhance my calm & serenity, I can be generally stable and hold things together rather well. This has not been one of those months, and perhaps a good example why I need to write more.
Now that the budget has been re-worked and we're settling money back into the right places in the right order, etc, one major headache has been resolved. There is still a significant gap between what we need to spend money on (clothes, auto repair, etc) and what we can spend money on, but it is more manageable now. The problem is I have no outlets any more.
I work Sunday - Wednesday, 9:30 AM to 8:00 PM. On my days off, even when the kids are in school, they are never off for me. Errands, sleep, chores... I really just need a break. A REAL break. To be able to go and do and live.